healing
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I never intended this. For a long time I couldn’t see the pattern, but I kept wondering why I had so much trouble making and keeping friends. I couldn’t understand why friendships ended in drama, and how I kept ending up in the same spot with different people. I blamed them completely, with little to…
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I don’t know where to begin; this story feels so big with too many layers. I cannot wrap my mind around it. I have struggled to write about everything that happened and how to tell it. So many people have asked me to tell them everything that happened, and I have tried, but it feels…
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“You’re too emotional”“You are weak”“You aren’t good enough ““You are not capable”The bully screams at meMy knees hit the bathroom floorTears sting from the mascara and then run down my cheeksWe are not safeWe are not okayThey all knowThey know how weak we areThey see what a broken thing we areThey all talk about it,…
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It’s been about a year and a half since I started really deconstructing and just over a year since I hit the bottom and questioned God’s existence. Healing from relgious trauma was one of the hardest things I have ever done; there was such a deep root of shame, condemnation, and fear in me. Processing…
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CSPTD I should be over this by now, I feel myself as I leave the office for an unplanned mental health day. It’s been 9 years, shouldn’t I be over this by now? As I continue shaming myself, the truth comes in: yes, it’s been 9 years of freedom, but it was 22 years of…
